Dam Nightmares

Posted on Friday 30 September 2016 @ 00:59 by Lieutenant JG Martin Landau

337 words; about a 2 minute read

Certain past experiences have been comming back as nightmares especially things and places visted as a diplomats aide. I feel quite cammy and hot then the sweats and rolling around followed by the muttering then screaming and then being flung awake heart pumping, head spinning and sweat everywhere. I started to have these terrors on the Rockhampton for a while they dissapeared on the Leeds replaced by other terror nightmares I still ocassionally see of people standing around me dark shadows laughing and calling me names for being on a female only crew and being under my sisters command ending up the same way as my diplomatic terrors same stuff happend sto myself and my body before I eventually wake up.

I fee like I should either go see someone or try and confront some of these things on the holodeck to reassure myself there nothing to worry about. I feel a councellor is a waste of my time to be honest being an aide is like being an assistaint to a councelor which is something I dont need at the moment or ever. Rosie is doing pritty well her best freidn when I left became XO I feel like postivive uplifting things will happen to that all female crew in the future.

Its going to be hard taking a hit in rank but its worth it to be on such a prestegious ship with such a historical name and a well recognised captain. The legacy is something which I should get along with but hopefully someday these nightmares will come under control by my own methods and enable a better nights sleep instead of dozing off on shift occasionally if its bees seriously bad. A councellor on the Leeds had no joy trying to fix it and suggested I go my own way in fixing it myself instead of medical help but anyway it a to live and learn experience and I hope to have fun with this fantastic crew from what iv heard and read.

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