Personal Matters

Posted on Tuesday 8 November 2016 @ 23:46 by Lieutenant JG Martin Landau
Edited on on Thursday 10 November 2016 @ 16:09

Mission: Old, New Ship
Location: Quarters
Timeline: MD9 - Mid Afternoon
1579 words - 3.2 OF Standard Post Measure

Martin had slipped into his quarters for a bit of personal stuff before being on duty. He strode in heading towards the desk and the chair wondering who to meet next in the senior staff. He sat down turning on the screen in front of him and started sifting through communications and emails wondering if a centaurian will fit in with this crew noticing a missed call from this morning and thought about trying the caller again. He tapped on the entry and it started ringing when a face appeared on the screen

"Commander Landau CO USS Leeds how can I help you" the voice replied

Martin looked shocked that his own sister didn't know it was him on the other end staring at her " Do you want me to come over there and slap you..." he was cut mid sentience by the face

"Oh it you been a long old mission with hardly any sleep. So what can I do for my brother" Rosie replied with that sort of stupid looking expression like she should have realized from the start who it was on the monitor

"You rang this morning do you need anything specific" Landau explained looking quite amused at her sister not recognizing him from the start and the fact she was slowly nodding off

"Oh yeah well the estate is all finished with the will being read out and there are some things that are yours from it plus the mention of this Munchkin. I realize it might be a hard decision to make regarding the family pet but It was part of the will that it be our responsibility for it and some other things I had to sort whilst being there at the house" Rosie explained

Martin had given the pet thing some thought but was unsure if he was ready to make a decision on its future or even bringing it aboard the ship. "I haven't decided yet on the pet thing yet I want to get settled in first before giving my answer. How was it being back at the empty house having to deal with all this" Martin asked

"Well its tough to deal with and I was trying to not show a starfleet officer crying but I managed to hold it together. It was hard loosing dad when his ship had a warp core meltdown and all hands lost but it was even harder losing mum" She explained

Landau could see a slight tear in her eye as if she was going to cry but he decided not to tell her and continue on with the topic and the call knowing full well that he himself may be depressed and down later. He was contemplating the next move to make with the conversation when she spoke up.

"I know it must be hard for you with the nightmares and such but with the news it may me too much to handle on top of these issues but I know you will pull together and sort yourself out one of these days" She replied in a softer toned voice

Martin heard his sister speak and was absorbing what she just said and it hit him hard. He sat there trying to hold it all in trying to hold back the pain and the sadness to not look weak in front of his sister and on video. He felt like a brick wall had hit him and was trying to hold everything back without bursting through it and letting it all out in front of family and during a video chat without seeming so distraught and down in the dumps. "So hows the Leeds going these days" trying to change the subject away from what would make him let out all his feelings and such.

"Its doing quite well actually we have started a two month long mission to map a new sector of space and will be joined by another ship later in the mission but apart from that not much has changed since you left" She responded

Landau took those words and responded "So when will I see you next to maybe transfer stuff over to the Merlin and other things"

"Well I don't actually know when we will be over your way to drop off some gear and the pet but id better be going the XO requires me on the bridge" She responded awaiting final message

"Well I will let you go and enjoy the mission" Martin responded as the call ended. He sat there trying not to let the emotions bottled up inside of him escape but it was far too late Martin sat there head on the desk tears running from his eyes wondering all I have left is her and if I was to loose her id probably kill myself or something. Martin couldn't bear to go on duty in this condition let alone let anyone see him like this and the thought of it was making martin even more sad, upset and down in the dumps even further.

Martin stood up tears still streaming from his eyes and tried to wipe them away as he felt like throwing something at a wall but the tears kind of stopped him doing so. He sat on the bed with even the family photo on the side table making it worse as he put his head into the pillow and continued to become further upset and getting even further down into the dumps. He had to be on shift in a few minutes but could not be facing duty like this or in his current condition and state of mind at this moment in time and within his quarters. Landau sat up and wiped the tears from his eyes and tried to calm himself down his mind telling him don't feel like being in uniform on duty or wearing the dam thing today at all but he had to do something to calm himself down before leaving this room.

He stood up and paced over to the wardrobe taking the uniform top off and putting on a plain red t-shirt affixing his combadge and rank to it and proceeded to pace around the room tears now streaming down his face onto the shirt as he moved towards the desk many thoughts all centered around his sisters survival and what would the consequences be affecting Martin if Rosie was killed. Martin sat at his desk hands on his head face on the desk tears gushing from the eyes now in an ever increasing period of depression. It was hard loosing dad when the warp core exploded killing everyone aboard the USS Wandsworth a hard period of Martins life then the even harder part of his life was the death of mum from a virus. The tears continued to flow as the sniffling started Martin was feeling more and more depressed with every thought zooming about his mind trying to block these thoughts and cool down when suddenly Landau stood up grabbing the padd on the desk and launching it In a fit of rage.

Martin stood there as he watched the padd hit the wall and shatter into pieces walking over to the glass table launching the chair into it with a shattering noise the table top broke into several tiny pieces. His heart was racing he was hyped up as he threw the plant at the window getting more and more hyped up and throwing things around the room in a enraged state his heart racing faster and faster. Martin fell to his knees surveying the carnage and cried tears erupting down his face something had triggered his outburst but maybe it was himself getting all worked up about his sister that caused the race to set in. He kneeled there crying his eyes out thinking why me why now why is this all now coming out right now something possibly from the video call had set off the triggers in his brain and this happened. Martin thought about ending it here and now he couldn't go on in the state he was in but tried to force himself to get up and go out maybe sulk in a Jeffries tube in the TIC before shift or try alcohol for the first time god knows what effect it would have on Landau for the first time. He got up brushed away the tears straightened the red t-shirt not exactly regulation uniform but at this point in time he didn't really give a dam about the uniform and his job.

Martin grabbed the satchel now lying by the entrance and decided to try his best to do his job in the state he was in and without the rest of his uniform on he didn't care much about anything. He was thinking about the Munchkin and how it would be nice to have the guy on shift with Landau in the state he was in maybe it would stop him doing something that would lead to trouble and a few days in a cell and maybe cheer him up. He stood there muttering come on Landau pull yourself together you can do it over and over again trying to get some sense into himself before exiting the room. He finally had enough courage in his current state to step through the door and onward to the TIC

Lieutenant JG Martin Landau
Chief Strategic Operations Officer
USS Merlin