Confession is food for the soul

Posted on Sunday 25 September 2022 @ 16:12 by Civilian Sansa Draxx-Jones

Mission: Revelations
Location: Ba'Ku
Timeline: MD8 0900
1059 words - 2.1 OF Standard Post Measure

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Sansa had woken slightly later this morning. Once again, she woke Hamish in her usual fashion and then went into the kitchen area to prepare breakfast for them both.

There was something that she had been keeping to herself and she decided it was now the best time to tell Hamish, she would inform her parents later that day,

Hamish had a smile, and felt rather grand, he stretched then rose from the bed to make it, then put on a robe. "Isn't it a glorious morning?" he greeted Sansa with a kiss. "What you are cooking smells wonderful."

"I thought I'd prepare something special this morning." She replied as she brought two plates over and set them down on the table. "Eggs Benedict with smoked salmon, I hope you like it."

"I do like it," Hamish responded, giving her a kiss. Then, he noticed a worried expression in her eyes. "What is it Sansa, something seems to be troubling you. What's up? We've got a wonderful shore leave planned, some exploration to do, what more can you ask for?"

"Actually..." She continued as bit her lip nervously "There is something I needed to tell you. Commodore Haistro has offered me a temporary posting heading up the oceanic survey team for the new colony here in the Briar patch. It's going to be a couple of months' work at least and I don't think I'll be finished before the Merlin departs. I'd like you to stay on the Station with me."

Hamish's eyes lit up, "That sounds outstanding, I would love to do so-" then he stopped abruptly as a thought hit him and his face crumpled. "Sansa, unless your mother gives me a temporary reassignment, I won't be able to stay with you. I can help a little bit but, when the Merlin is done with repairs, I'm going to have to leave. I'm her chief of science officer."

"What?" Sansa's head jerked up and she looked at him shocked. She had expected that he would want to stay here with her. "But.. but..." She stammered "I'm sure mom can do without for a month or so..."

A voice suddenly whispered in her head... He'd stay if I asked him to....

Irrational anger rose in her, she put her fork down on the table... hard... "So that's how it is? You'd stay if Aurae asked you to, but not me?"

She stood, her anger continuing to build for some unknown reason. "You want her, don't you? You want her you bastard! Am I not good enough for you anymore? Was it all lies?"

She started hyperventilating... Suddenly it felt like the walls were closing in... smothering her. Her head was swimming in a sea of rage and confusion.

"I need to get, get some air.." and she suddenly headed for the door.

Hamish was confused, at her reaction. "I haven't said anything about Aurae. What the devil is going on with you? And I am not interested in Aurae like that, she isn't you" the man feeling some ire rising, his Scottish blood starting to boil.. He stepped forward. "Sansa you are not acting logically. Now just calm down and let's talk this out," he growled.

"No...." She recoiled away from him. "Stay away from me! I don't want you anywhere near me! I need some space... to clear my head. I want to be alone!"

And with that Sansa stormed out of the Cabin....

"Oh, that woman!" Hamish finished getting dressed and kept Belle inside the cabin. He needed a walk and not in the same direction as Sansa. He was angry, and stormed away in the opposite way Sansa had gone, avoiding Melody's cabin. He wasn't going to take Belle with him.

Sansa ran for a while, her face red with rage. She ran until she reached a small coved beach area and she stopped, her breathing ragged, her fists clenched.

Sansa looked to the sky, speaking aloud to herself. “Why did he have to do that? Why did he….”

Suddenly, just as quickly as it had appeared, her anger dissolved into nothing and she was left standing confused for a moment. Where had that anger come from? Why had she reacted like that?

She gasped and her hands flew to her mouth as realisation hit home. Slowly she sank to her knees, tears filling her eyes.

“My God! What have I done?” She asked herself in quiet shock.

Suddenly she stood and started running back to the Cabin. “Hamish! I’m coming! I’m sorry!”

When she reached the cabin, only Belle was there, lying on the floor, her head in her paws making a soft whimpering noise.

Sansa picked up the tiny pup and cuddled her.

“I’ve messed up Belle…” she said quietly as she stroked her

“I’ve messed up big.”

Hamish paid no mind where he was going, he was angry, slightly hurt, and confused. He had his duty to perform for the Merlin and he didn't think Melody was going to let him do another temporary assignment, even if he wanted to. He didn't get a chance to ask Melody, maybe they needed some time away from each other. Hamish fumed, was their relationship more on the basis that she and Esme had become one? He burst through some brush to find himself in a clearing and found he wasn't alone.

A soft, melodic voice broke the silence. “Hello Hamish”

Reclined against a tree was Aurae wearing a white flowing dress. A blanket with a picnic basket in front of her, a bottle of wine with two glasses… as if she’d been expecting company.

Her green eyes sparkled and she held out an inviting hand, a warm smile on her lips.
“You look troubled. Come, join me. I can ease your pain. We have more in common than you know and I have much…. to show you.”

Hamish quirked up an eyebrow at this, there was just something about her that seemed to draw him in, and then he hesitated. What was he doing? He turned yet again to leave but it felt like something was pulling him toward her


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Sansa Draxx-Jones
Marine biologist
USS Merlin

●● Lieutenant Hamish Teague
Chief Science Officer
USS Merlin